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December 02, 2003

and now, a brief intermission

I am having a mild anxiety attack and I don't know why. Suddenly, I am restless and feel like the control I hold on life is slipping away. I know better, but that is what it feels like. Kind of like knowing you are hallucinating. Perhaps it is just because I feel foolish and also like I am not getting what I want, even though I couldn't tell you what I wanted if you asked me point blank. That and part of what I think I want isn't what I want at all. I know that much. Are you confused yet?

I think I need a mudslide. or a toddie. Aren't you glad I share my weirdness with you?

Oh and you, yes you, thanks for brightening my past few weeks.

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** hugs **

I have days like this, too.

Posted by: Anne at Dec 2, 2003 11:25:24 PM

Actually, yes, I am glad you share, if the sharing helps you feel a bit better. Doc's prescription: the drink (or 2 or 3), a horrribly cheesy (either funny or sappy) movie on the TV/VCR/DVD to take your mind off things whilst you imbibe, and then a good nights sleep. It won't cure you, but it might allow your mind some "off-time" from dwelling on things. Hang in there.

Posted by: Keith at Dec 3, 2003 4:03:23 AM

Ahh, we all have days like that. Some more than others. A stiff drink, long hot shower and some good sleep will help!

Posted by: Chris at Dec 3, 2003 6:54:24 AM

Sounds like every day of my life. ;-)

Posted by: Leslee at Dec 3, 2003 6:59:23 AM

Best case for worse scenario. Go on a small trip and enjoy the creation before you. I was in the same mood as you before, I went out and took pictures for 3 days straight, all better. =D I hope things will work out for thee.

Posted by: Andrew at Dec 3, 2003 7:00:26 AM

You guys are all totally awesome. Do I sound like a child of the '80s? :) I did sleep, so deeply in fact that I turned the alarm off this morning and overslept. It felt great. My dreams were of the sort where you face the demons and tell them off right good and proper, and that went a long way to the better mood. Now I rush to work, late before I even get in the car. A big hug to all of you, you guys are great.

Ok, one last question: what would have been your drink of choice had you been me last night?

Posted by: Alicia at Dec 3, 2003 7:57:11 AM

You know, when I feel like I'm losing my perspective, I try to either
do some meditation or go to a really absorbing movie with my husband.
For me, I get turned inward and get lost in my own stuff...going to a
movie--especially like a funny holiday movie, always brings me out into
the rest of the world again. :-)

Posted by: teresa at Dec 3, 2003 8:53:06 AM

Glad to hear you're feeling better. I would have recommended watching some nature shows, like the Blue Planet or something. Drink: Hot chocolate, with extra chocolate and a chocolate biccie. What did you have?

Posted by: jon at Dec 3, 2003 9:14:52 AM

Cheer up! *grins* I had a glass of whiskey last night in hoping some of the booze-addled energy would reach you and make you feel happy and fuzzy.

Posted by: David at Dec 3, 2003 10:08:16 AM

I find writing these days to be the most satisfying thing I can do. Not necessarily on my blog, either. Or reading a good book that really sucks you into another time and place.

But to answer your question. I prefer wine to anything else. Preferably red now that it's cold out - shiraz, some Spanish rioja, Italian vitelli, something from Argentina. Something that makes me think of warm places.

Posted by: Leslee at Dec 3, 2003 10:10:00 AM

I should have added that when I drink red wine I can tell myself that I'm doing something very healthy. ;-)

Posted by: Leslee at Dec 3, 2003 10:28:38 AM

David, thanks for the long distance healing :) Leslee, I say the same thing about drinking red wine. It is my drink of choice, although I am a sucker for frozen mudslides or almost anything Kahlua. Jon, I ended up just going to bed, had the hot shower this morning and nothing alcoholic to drink. I think a nice long hot bath with candles and wine would have really been good too. Teresa, I have unopened copies of The Santa Clause and The Santa Clause 2 waiting for me at home :)And you are all right, I just need to get out of my head :)

The best thing I can do is tackle the issue at hand, get right with myself and the world. It is amazing how well that works.

Posted by: Alicia at Dec 3, 2003 10:35:36 AM

Glad to hear you are feeling better today ... its the time of year I think!

Posted by: Wendy at Dec 3, 2003 11:40:22 AM

Hot cocoa and cookies! And a snuggly fleece blanket and the DVD of Price and Prejudice. They don't always cure me on those days but they always help to pick me up.

Posted by: Ana at Dec 3, 2003 11:51:18 AM

Er. Pride and Prejudice. Though the other would have been interesting too... =P

Posted by: Ana at Dec 3, 2003 11:53:07 AM

I have never seen Pride and Prejudice. I haven't read it either. I will have to add that to my eternal list of books to read and movies to watch. It cheers you up?

Nightmare before Christmas makes me smile, also silly movies like The Pirate Movie. Mame is a good one, with Lillian Russell. Okay, now I am off to make a list of movies that are good to watch when I am feeling blue. Anyone who has one to add, let me know :)

Posted by: Alicia at Dec 3, 2003 1:05:02 PM

Happy Gilmore, Charlie's Angels, Spaced (http://www.spaced-out.org.uk/), Empire Records, Dogma...
I think you need to post this question.

Posted by: jon at Dec 3, 2003 1:55:34 PM