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March 31, 2004

The Invitation

Lori at Gita Manas has posted a poemy bit of sorts called The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer. This has been a favorite of mine so I will put it here, but also go check it out on Lori's beautiful site. She has some great posts and is a great gal.

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.


by
Oriah Mountain Dreamer
copyright © 1999 by Oriah Mountain Dreamer.

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where's Alicia?

I have been a blog-slacker for the past few days/weeks. I know part of it is my falling into lethargy of depression (not terrible or serious depression, just the blahs). Part of it is my rousing myself to do some things I couldn't do while I was working. Yesterday I visited my best girlfriend. Our times together fulfill our souls, the way it should be. We always seem to eat and shop and just blab on about everything going on in our lives. There is always the traditional visit to Target, too (part of the shopping).

Yesterday I headed down to see her in the Dallas rush hour traffic. I had already forgotten the horrors of sitting in traffic for an hour and I must say, I am none the worse for it :) Anyway, we went to this coffeehouse/breakfast place called Legal Grounds. The whole name is Legal Grounds-Law & Coffee. There is apparently a lawyer on site, and the walls are lined with bookshelves full of legal books. One assumes they are his/hers. This is reminiscent of Ed, where his law practice is housed in his bowling alley. I just found the whole thing amusing, and it made breakfast a neat new experience.

addendum: link to article by Legal Grounds owner and lawyer, David Musslewhite, added above.

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chicken?

¿Quién es más macho? You decide.

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March 29, 2004

Speaking of the Dragon Bear Cave

Anne's been busy and has many, many good posts today about the separation of church and state, the science of getting things done, and global warming. All excellent. Go. Read.

well, go on!

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time for another quiz or two!


which groupmember are you?

via Doc at Random Thinks

and also...



I'm terza rima, and I talk and smile.
Where others lock their rhymes and thoughts away
I let mine out, and chatter all the while.

I'm rarely on my own - a wasted day
Is any day that's spent without a friend,
With nothing much to do or hear or say.

I like to be with people, and depend
On company for being entertained;
Which seems a good solution, in the end.
What Poetry Form Are You?

and were I not a terza rima, I would be a sonnet, like Anne, from whom I got this quiz.

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errata

Dress pictures will have to wait till I have them re-made. My mother isn't the best photographer and the images are cropped funny. I'll make more this week. I don't mind trying on the dresses again :)

Meanwhile, I am furiously job hunting and it occurred to me (again, I'm slow) that now is the time to do what I want, decide what I really want to be doing with myself. I found out that ITT Tech has a game programmer's degree, but not at any of their Texas campuses. I do like the idea, however, of going back for more training in web design and programming. They have an online course I could take while working somewhere fun. Or I can buckle down and go in to classes at the Dallas campus.

Option #2 I am considering is going for a massage therapy license. It's something I have wanted to do for years but was too busy working 50 hours a week and driving 10 more on top of that.

I am sure if I look there are other careers I would love to go into. Jill of all trades, master of none, that's me. I guess it's time to grow up and decide. Even though I don't want to...

My next career/job will be something fulfilling and enjoyable. I am asking for that, I hope to get it. We all deserve to enjoy our lives.

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March 28, 2004

Unconscious Mutterings 60

Pitbull:: Ducky (my friend's pit)
TD:: Waterhouse
Carter:: peanut
Japan:: anime
50:: stars
Streak:: of luck
Rifle:: man
Trap:: shot
Easter:: basket
Mitt:: oven

via Doc and Unconscious Mutterings

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March 27, 2004

retail therapy

I went shopping today and bought 6 FABULOUS dresses and a fancy necklace that goes with 5 of them. I figured I needed some interview clothes, and I am getting back a nice tax refund. They look great and were all on clearance too, woo-hoo! I'll post pictures tomorrow maybe. I found a pair of shoes that match one of the dresses perfectly, but I refrained from buying them. Maybe I'll go back tomorrow.

There is almost nothing as pleasing to a woman than finding clothes that fit and look great on her.

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Roger Clyne

& the Peacemakers, at the Gypsy Tearoom in Dallas this Tuesday the 30th. Who wants to go?

Tickets are $12.50 and the doors open at 7:30.

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March 26, 2004

oh my stars!

I had a friend work out my astrological transits recently and I want to share the joy with you. This is kind of long, so keep reading if you care about such things. I am just disturbed when the words "This is a period of general regeneration, which may not be entirely pleasant" are the first ones in the paragraph.

Let me say that I don't live my life by what my local newspaper says is going on astrologically, but I am fascinated when something seemingly so specific (say that 5 times fast) hits the nail on the head in my life.

(from my email)
Just went to look at your chart again and realized I missed a big transit:
Pluto square Pluto. I copied in below they say about it on astro.com. I've also been reading up on Neptune transiting into the 7th house (snip). Anyway, the first thing Neptune does as it enters the 7th house is oppose the Ascendant: "How we typically emerge into the day-to-day world (Asc.) is ready to undergo a breakdown and reassembling of self-expression. Neptune reshapes things for the better whenever possible, even thought the process can be unstabilizing. Things have to fall apart before Neptune can do its special make-over..."


Pluto Square Pluto (the astro.com information, emphasis mine)
activity period from beginning of February 2004 until end of November 2005.

Valid during many months: This is a period of general regeneration, which may not be entirely pleasant. Most of us are attached to the past whether or not it is good for us. And this influence will root out precisely those elements of the past that are not good for you, even those aspects that you have forgotten about. Problems that you may have lost track of entirely but which are still working unconsciously in your life may reappear and become active now, usually but not always to your detriment.
This influence is associated with forces for change that are inherent within the hidden depths of things. Therefore you should not blame the unpleasant changes that occur now on circumstances or persons in your environment. Look within yourself to see how the groundwork for the present is laid in the past.

Many things may be destroyed at this time, and the destruction will be ruthless if you defend them with rigidity. The action of this influence upon unyielding entities is particularly harsh. Therefore you should simply allow the things of the past to fade and allow the future to be born on their ruins. If you can do this, the potential for positive change is very great. (just like my quicksand metaphor, eh?)

This influence may also increase your concern about the creative and regenerative processes within the universe and cause you to become interested in the occult. However, certain aspects of the occult, such as magic, are best avoided during this time, because the energies involved will be difficult to control now. Although your conscious mind may be in control at first, you are likely to find that entirely unconscious forces within you have taken over and are running you completely. This can have disastrous consequences.

You may also get into severe power struggles with people who are trying to prevent the changes in your life or who are trying to expedite changes that you are resisting. Look very carefully to ascertain which category they are in. (of course, it doesn't tell you what to do once you figure out who's who...)

Thanks, Leslee. I'm glad you passed this along to me. (really.)

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